What ifs are a big part of my life. I tend to start my sentences in my head of what ifs. Lately I’ve been trying to change those nasty little thoughts. They get old after awhile and really control my life. I’m tired of them so here I am combating them:
What happens if my pants and shorts don’t fit anymore? : Well clearly I’ll need to go buy new clothes. Did I expect to stay the same size forever? and don’t I have to buy new clothes almost every season anyway because the old clothes don’t fit anymore. Size of the clothes doesn’t matter it’s how I feel on the inside.
Best part about this picture is that 1) I don’t think Kyle knew I made this face 2) usually he’s the one making the faces
What happens if I can’t stop the weight from going up and up? : Clearly I’ve had control over what I’ve eaten in the past to get to the point I am at now. So I’m pretty sure I’ll have control to stop any weight gain that may be too much to handle mentally. My body will tell me what my healthy comfortable weight not the scale. Also remember I’ve maintained this weight for so long just by walking I don’t need to run to lose/maintain my weight. As long as I’m not binging everyday in McDonald’s I’m pretty sure I can maintain a steady healthy weight in my life.
What happens if my back doesn’t get better when I put on weight? : Then we try another alternative therapy until it does get better.
What happens if I put on weight and I’m still not happy with the way I look? : Well this is nothing new. I’ve never liked the way I’ve looked. Always comparing myself to others. Weight is not the issue. I need to fix my self-esteem. Stop nit-picking everything I see. Stop thinking: “my legs are so fat” Think: “Look at how strong and powerful they are and these legs have taken me where I am today”
What happens if I can’t stop myself from mindless eating? That’s not possible. I know my trigger foods and I know that as long as I’m not eating straight out of the bag I’ll be able to stop myself.
What happens if I can’t look at the menu before going out to a restaurant?: Good! It’s about time you stop obsessing over what restaurants have to offer. Just go with whatever I’m craving. Like last night, I had a sweet potato and cottage cheese. I didn’t even want my piece of chocolate after dinner because the sweet potato and cottage cheese pretty much hit the mark. Okay I need to stop talking about that cause I’m starting to drool over my keyboard.
What happens if I feel guilty after something I ate? It’s bound to happen. I learned my lesson. Either don’t eat as much of it next time or don’t bother eating it. Why should I eat something that makes me feel guilty? I should eat stuff I want to eat!
What happens if I can’t follow my normal sleep schedule?: Let’s be serious Alexis, when was the last time I slept in past 7am.. no seriously. think about it. I don’t remember. It’s been at least over a year. Therefore it won’t be too messed up and chances are I’ll be in tune with the rest of the world instead of waking up at 4am every morning. who wakes up at 4am on their own free will every morning?
I need to learn to roll with the punches. Life is not about control. I can’t control what other people do, what situations may come up, what changes my happen. So Note to self: relax, roll with the punches, and go eat some food.
How do you combat those negative thoughts?
Any photographers with a DSLR. I have a Canon EOS Rebel and I’m still learning about it but whenever I upload pictures onto wordpress the files are huge and take up a ton of space. How do I edit my SD card/camera? Stupid question I know!